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i did it :D

i did my speech
i think it was ok
only thing is i was signalled by my teacher to slow down a lot

and i told my counselllor
i said last time i feel like life hates me but the thing is i dont really like it back
then i said a quote someone said which i relate to 'i feel like im drowning but ik how to swim its just that the current is too strong'
dont think she got the hint so i said another 'life feels like a chore i dont want to participate in

dont think she got much of the hint either ;-;

there was this picture someone made which was hanging above me and she said she saw it earlier today and thought it seemed like me

if i could sum it up in one word i would say it looks like depression

there was someone trying to go to sleep but thinking of failure
same person diff scenario alone while people laughing behind them
the person not wanting to eat

person going to bed thinking about a skull (death) and scribbles
then there were also others i cant remember

do u think my counsellor got the hint im suicidal?

i could cry
I HAVE MY *GCSE* SPEECH TODAY

MY ANXIETY IS BAD
WHEN MY ANXIETY IS BAD MY TOURRETTES IS BAD
i have several tics - they sound like coughts, sneezes and mutations
i have been ticking a lot cus anxiety

IM LOSING MY VOICE CUS IVE BEEN GOD DAMN TICKING SO MUCH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

my throat hurts so much
my voice is rapidly disapparating

i have my speech in around 2 hours
help :sobs:

Tomorrow I’m doing my GCSE spoken language SPEECH
send help
‘Gcse’ and ‘speech’ and ‘spoken’ and doing it in front of the class are big triggers for my anxiety =D
this is the speech I will be speaking out tomorrow to my whole English class full of morons (apart from my friends)
If someone does read it Ty ig 😭 and would you mind giving me your opinion of what you think of it? :D
it is kinda long o.o
its 3 a4 pages on word lol

Imagine feeling your head pounding, your heart racing, mind spinning overwhelmed in intrusive inescapable thoughts filled with worry of what you are going through. Have any of you here felt like this before? This is a natural human response you may experience when your body feels under threat. It is undeniable that most of you have experienced this feeling at least once in your lives and if you haven’t yet you may do in the future whether it is when you're in an exam hall, sitting your gcse’s the paper dictating the turn of the path your future will take, going for your first job interview – being worried if you will get the job opportunity or not.


Anxiety is an emotion, and like all emotions you can experience it at any point of your life. Anxiety is when you feel worried, tense or afraid – particularly about things that are about to happen, or think could happen in the future. Teachers say that ‘having anxiety is good because it shows you care about what you are worried about’. This can be true – if you were not worried about a math's test you may have next week you would not revise, and by not revising when the test comes you may struggle and end up getting a terrible [LB3] grade per se. However, if you are anxious you may revise for hours to ensure you do well on the test – and if you do revise you most likely will do well on the test. In my opinion this can be a great thing but the problem with this is when you experience anxiety too much and too often.


Research shows that constantly worrying, and living in a state of perpetual anxiety can reduce life expectancy. It is important to try reducing high levels of stress and anxiety so people can live a long happy life. Anxiety is a feeling which at least 60% of individuals experience mild symptoms of. Luckily, anxiety does not last forever (unless you have severe/chronic anxiety or an anxiety disorder which will be spoken about later.)


Even in my furthest memories of life I have always been anxious. From the time of my third birthday, I was running late to school due to traffic and I was worrying I wouldn’t make it in time (punctuality and having a good impression has always been important to me.) or whether I am in a math’s test
and worrying I may not succeed even though I have always mostly done well in math’s. A few months ago, I had a French test. I remember the first part of the test was a listening test. I have always struggled with understanding the French accent so I was already worried and even more worried when I heard that is what we would be doing first. My mind started spinning full of overwhelming thoughts as I felt like I was already failing before it had even begun. My hearing was going muffled, I could not concentrate, my heart pounding with every beat. I was so overwhelmed due to the anxiety I could not complete the test. I was having an anxiety attack.


People say anxiety is a ‘sign of personal weakness’ it is an emotion. An emotion is not a personal weakness. I repeat – it is not a sign of personal weakness.


As I was not able to complete the test I left the classroom, to calm myself down. A teacher also helped by giving me something to fidget with to distract me from my worries which did help. I suggest if you ever feel anxious try distract yourself. If you are having an anxiety attack, remember - is okay and you will be fine even if you do not think it at the time, you will survive the attack.


After school I completed the test, and I was less worried as I was able to calm my worries down earlier. I did well on the test – one of the best scores I had achieved before (if I were not worrying so much, I would probably have been able to do even better)


Furthermore, some People say ‘Anxiety is not a real medical illness’. Anxiety disorders are the most common mental disorder to exist and has the highest prevalence in the U.S population. There are several anxiety disorders, but I will list a few; Social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, generalised anxiety disorder (GAD), Post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and you may not know this but (OCD) is also an anxiety disorder. Anxiety disorders have impacted over 8 million people at any point of their life. Some symptoms of anxiety disorders are – feeling restless or on edge, being irritable, getting tired easy, having difficulty concentrating or feeling your mind go blank, having difficulty going to sleep or staying asleep, and having tense muscles and more. If you feel like you may have an anxiety disorder or if is affecting your daily life and causing you distress you should book an appointment with your GP.


Anxiety can be caused by childhood trauma, negative life events, physical or mental health problems, stress relating to work or education, social isolation and more. Research also shows that if your parents have anxiety, it can also be passed onto their children.


Additionally, there are ways to get help and calm anxiety down. Breathing exercises such as rectangle breathing and Lotus breathing help to calm the breath and therefore the body and mind. Talking to someone in general, counselling, talking to a trusted adult or a friend or family member even keeping a diary, or a journalling can also help.


Me being up here as someone who suffers from anxiety is proof that it is something which can be overcome.Hopefully you have learnt something from this whether you are someone who struggles with anxiety yourself or knows someone who does. Thank you for listening, does anyone have any questions for me to answer?

Tomorrow it is a general election
every student in my school is too young to vote

so the student parliament people in our school are making our own election
so we can see what the votes our school did compare to the real world >:D