I got 6/22 (27%) on my unannounced maths test

FOR MY END OF YEAR TESTS;
NON CALCULATOR: 58/90
CALUCLATOR: 78/90

my parents were not very happy
got called a lot of names
and silent treatment
and threatened if I get results like this in year 10 they gonna throw me out =D (sarcastic smile)

then my old maths teacher who marked the tests saw me yesterday and said like not to be too hard on myself
and my French teacher was also there and was saying how amazing I am 😭

but how can I possibly be proud of myself when my parents can never be proud of me? :(

How my counsellor knows I’m suicidal except I kinda forgot a bit

I struggle expressing my feelings
so the session started tryna make a collage cutting things out of magazine things showing how I feel or smth

I kept skipping pass stuff even though I should have cut it out bc what if someone else wanted it bc they went through smth similair
And she kept telling me that doesn’t matter I’m the only one who does now

then she said she notices how I’m trying to not take too much
like I’m trying to take as little as possible so I don’t bother anyone
which is true

but I was struggling and said I felt like I was stupid bc I couldn’t do smth like that
so she said I should stop then bc she doesn’t want me to feel like that

Then I can’t remember how but I said I feel like a burden
i think she asked me to expand on that or smth
and I said I feel like it would be better if I die or smth



she asked how often I feel like this
i lied and said a little bit

and then she said I know this can seem scary or difficult to answer but have you ever tried attempting or made any plans

my hearing literally went muffled when she said that I felt like I was struggling to breathe
and I said no (lies)

I said that if I do try kms then I feel like I may be a coward bc I’m tryna run away from my problems and others have worse.

then she now thinks that the only thing keeping me alive is me being harsh on myself which is kinda true ig

but yeah I did it

tysm for everyone’s support :)

not to sound rude but i absolutely hate the new likes thing 😫

I miss spring

Everything in my house is leaking what is going on
this past week has been weird I’d rather not talk about it and try to be lighthearted and make myself laugh

Here's the next skin up in my Sanrio series, Tuxedosam! :D He ended up looking so boring, ahhhh ;-; I'm so out of the loop making skins these days </3

I’m waiting for online clothes shops to have a feature where you can upload a picture of yourself and it will create a deepfake-like picture of you wearing the clothes from the shop so you can see how it would look on yourself

because that would be terrifying but also sick af

Im only subbed to vips (kat please subscribe to me too :<)

Me too me too me toooooo